Lyrics

Azure

Stuck inside
Deranged routines
Resorted to
Sharp crying screams
Let’s down some more
Ride fake extremes
Pain
Sweet pain

Depression rules
All systems failing
My body melts
Clear haze unveiling
Cemented shackles
Distorted crackles
End
Sweet end

Startled by
Distressing sight
You hold me close
You’re shining bright
My trembling arms
Embracing light
Faith
Sweet faith

Taste my tears
And heal my sores
Pick up what’s left
And say I’m yours
Feel my yearning
My way of earning
Trust
Sweet trust

And as our sun
begins to shine
And as your eyes
reach out for mine
I lose all thrust to fight and strive
I can’t let me begin to thrive

And as the rain
keeps pouring down
And as your colours
fade and drown
I slowly let you slip away
My mind takes off, you’re left astray

Stuck within
Grotesque routines
Resorted to
Sharp distant screams
Let’s down some more
Taste broken dreams
Pain
Sweet pain

Resentment rules
All systems failing
My body jerks
Black fate prevailing
Distorted crackles
Connected shackles
End
Sweet end

Startled by
Intrusive sight
You hold me close
You’re smiling bright
My resting arms
Embracing light
Faith
Sweet faith

Chase my fears
And bathe my sores
Pick up what’s left
And say I’m yours
Sheer yearning
My way of earning
Trust
Sweet trust

And as our sun
begins to shine
And as your heart
beats next to mine
My promise swiftly breaks in two
I cannot let you help me through

And as the rain
keeps pouring down
And as your core
begins to drown
I shift and let you slip away
My mind takes off in disarray



Black Ice

Violence, drugs and amped up trauma
Used to be the setting of my life
Before you was a constant time of aching
You took my hand and pulled away the knife

Absorbing every inch of our perfection
Meshing your breath with mine
I’m sharing every piece of past rejection
You curl up, caress my mind

I’m losing every sense of distant failures
Of every wasted second of my life
Never thought I’d find this kind of shelter
Never leave my troubled heart behind

I see those words fall through your eyes
I see your lips all paralyzed
Silent tears: “you’re not worth keeping,
Your pitch black heart wants endless weeping”

I see our world fade through your eyes
I see my mind all paralyzed
Violent tears: “you’re too fucked up,
the life we shared got too corrupt”

Violence, drugs and amped up trauma
Once again the setting of my night
Absorbing every kind of constant failures
You took away my every spark to fight

Mesmerized by claws that rip my heart out
That blow up every second of my life
Hating ever finding warmth and shelter
My troubled mind overflown with lies

Forgetting every piece of our perfection
Embracing fucked decline refined
Pushing back the fact I even met you
Discarding every thought of piece of mind

I see those words fall through your eyes
I see your lips all paralyzed
Whispering: “you’re too deceiving,
Your pitch black heart wants endless grieving”

I see our world fade through your eyes
I see my mind all paralyzed
Whimpering: “your soul is cursed,
You desperately want it to burst”

I lift myself into the sky
There’s nothing left for me to try
It hits me at my final call
Survival was my very fall



Dead Cells

Shooting up with faceless people
Escaping violent dark
Sick and scared and fucked up nausea
Forever it’s my spark

Climbing down through raising heartbeats
Escaping from your every false treat
Your eyes are filled
With spikes of poison

Shooting up with faceless people
Forever left to cry
No way out, I’ll sell my fate now
Kiss my soul goodbye

Frowning from your every fraction
Looking down clear every section
Reaching out…
Please stay a while

Sliding down
Forever gone
You say you’ll kiss my every tear
You say you’ll never disappear
Take me in
Touch my sin
You say you’ll hold me oh so tight
You say you’ll lose my every fright

Emerging in complete psychosis
Attacking from behind
Losing every sense of hesitation
Nothing left that’s mine

Surrounded by loud piercing laughter
Forever lost, red frail disaster

There’s something in your eyes
They tell me that you’re mine
I want to give you everything
Instead I give my very sin

Emerging in complete psychosis
Curled ready for the crawl
Fighting for deep constant darkness
Black failure, stiff appall

Embracing this loud piercing laughter
Forever lost, red frail disaster
Seeking trust…
Please stay a while

Sliding down
Forever gone
You said you’d kiss my every tear
You said you’d never disappear
Take me in
Touch my sin
You said you’d hold me oh so tight
You said you’d lose my every fright



You Slit My Soul

Hand in hand, prepared to spiral out of control
The darkness seized us and consumed our torn souls
There was no rescue, no will to crawl
You drowned us both, showered us in blood red rainfall

As we’re closing in, head for the ledge
You grab me tightly, face me as you pledge
You say “I’ll meet you when we’ve conquered hesitation
We’ll shimmer brightly when we’ve reached our destination”

Teeth like needles, pale face
Show me I’m useless
Cut me open so I cease to bleed
Shape your senses, give me nightfall
Rub me gently with your broken dreams

Set my brain on fire please… Leave me behind
Our black horizon quickly turns to stone
Symbiotic chase through ruptured souls
My mind shuts down
I slowly stop to fight the urge to see us drown

Teeth like razors, pale face
Show me I’m worthless
I slash you open so you cease to bleed
Relentless truth rejection, enter nightfall
Grab me tightly with your shattered needs

Shove your claws in me please… Leave me behind
Our blank horizon splintered, forever lost
Symbiotic chase through fractured souls
My veins shut down
I slowly stop to fight the urge to see us drown



Cold Waves Of Silence

Our perfect dream cracked by your frozen veil
Collapsing in cold waves of silence
You slip your dress and we embrace the pain
Dazed devotion, fake alliance

Our shining star stripped by my frozen veil
Aging slowly into fears of violence
I scream within: “please forget my name”
Ashes, doubts, perpetual defiance

Radiant flare
Faint exploding stare
Our bodies bare
There’s nothing to share
We detest the very core of living
So desperate for air

Psychotic haze
Aberrant embrace
Black incessant maze
Lush Ambien raise
Shadows of our throbbing senseless nightmare

Subverged decay
Psychedelic sway
Our souls heavy with dismay
Wintered shackles, please do stay
Our world painted grey

Our shining past stripped by my frozen veil
Collapsing in cold waves of silence
You hitch your skirt and we embrace the pain
Raging swiftly into tears and violence

Our perfect world cracked by your frozen veil
Numb induction, stale alliance
You scream within: “please forget my name”
Erosion, mistrust, deliberating compliance

Radiant flare
Faint exploding stare
Our bodies bare
There’s nothing to share
In every vein inject misgiving
We pretend we’re always there

Psychotic haze
Pathetic disgrace
Sweet static maze
Lush Ambien raise
Echoes of our throbbing shameless nightmare

Subverged decay
Bipolar weight
Our bodies cracked, come disarray
Frosted shackles, please don’t stay
Our flesh painted grey

Submission

Shaped into unknown forms
Views curbed by control
Altered extractions
Imprisoning every choice
Voices merged to my soul
Rejected by denial

Thoughts harassed by your tongue
Aiming at my last step
I stay under the surface
Defending my confidence
Try obtain unconsciousness
Still flooded with deceit

Swimming in deep blue
I see no way through
I hide from your impression
Obliged with resistance
I reload my ambition

Swallow yourself if fed
Close your eyes, pretend dead
Beware of existance
Smile to retain your strength
Repress your fears
Hide your tears

Swallow yourself if fed
Close your eyes, pretend dead
Compelled to submission
Lie to retain your strength
Submit your fears
Hide your tears

Shaped in an empty form
Smothered by control
I move in your direction
Picture the way you act
“Show me your world
– I’m left behind”

Swimming in deep blue
You show the way through
Reject your denial
Proceed with your noxious task
Let go of yourself

Stale

Slightly too much to drink
Tried hard to numb the guilt
By altering the levitation
Without finding an explanation
Another day of finding flesh
Still searching for innocent lips
Installing the mask protection
Hoping to avoid detection
Conjuring with a promising kiss
No conscience for what they will miss

A mind drifting soft in the dark
Entering a passage of angels
Succumbed by a dream so real
Signals peaking red to near
Alarming the need of compassion
Through syndromes of fertile erection
Longing for a flowered relation
Blinded by ejaculation

Attracted by transparent eyes
Tasting their inner flavours
Stimulation breaking ice
Test turning into fiction
Experimental penetration
Resolving the contamination

Tearstained

Waking up
with the lights still on
Thinking all night
about where I belong
Writhing in frames
of your vanished shame
A tearstained view
replaying pictures of you

Your warmth warming him
His hands on your skin
Seducing susceptive ears

Your eyes tasting his
A sore eternal kiss
Wiping away your tears

Shaping up
through the night so strong
Nourishing from hopes
of a place to belong
Detesting the earth
of your world so cold
Accessing emerged
retaining lies so bold
You insist you resist
still the urge slipped through
Crippling all trust
exerting faith too cruel

Your warmth warming him
His hands on your skin
Seducing susceptive ears

Your eyes tasting his
A sore eternal kiss
Wiping away your tears

Your flesh tempting him
Hands caressing skin
Indulged by his eager words

Your voice close to his
A stark eternal kiss
Wiping away our years

Your dark hungry eyes
Startling his lies
Pretending both close and true
Ravishing our inner view

Overload

We’re still and quiet now
(It’s oh so silent now)
You’re anxious to cry thats why
(so anxious to cry)

Be still and silent now
(You’re far too quiet now)
You try to retain that smile
(But lose it somehow)

We’re moving the circle
Keep moving in circles

Wrap me in silver
Each time we fail
Your slumbering stiffness
Catching my breath
Mouth velvet empty
Slow slowly moving
The glow coming nearer
each time we faint
Straining your spirit
we dye our lives red
Paleness overwhelming
Slow slowly fading
Eyes worried empty
With nothing to say

We’re still and silent now
(It’s oh so quiet now)
You want me to cry thats why
(You want me to try)

Be still and quiet now
(You’re far too silent now)
You’re trying to fake that smile
(But lose it somehow)

We’re still and quiet now
(There’s silence all around)
I want you to try thats why
(I want you to cry)

We’re still so violent now
(You’re still so violent now)
We reach for the icy sky
(But lose it each try)

Wrap me in silver
Each time we fail
Your rioting sickness
Pouring over my face
Tongue Ruby Frozen
Gate slowly opening
Do we exist?
Please try
Always
Never
How did we get here?
So?
Why?
Does it matter?
Eyes naked tempting
Start startling nowhere
Hands trembling empty
Thinking nothing but lust



Velvet Dream

You give me present decay
You send me a lifetime away
I try to caress your mind
But your head is spinning around

You show me a path to lead
Then you hide your treasury
I fight to supress your smile
But you gave me wings to fly

I can feel you
all around me
so possessive
so intriguing
Unspoken promises
that shatter
Your inner need
is the only matter

I can sense you
deep inside me
We are losing
every moment
Misguided confidence
that shatter
Your elegy
is the only matter

You unlock my
darkest cavern
To show me
you’re in need of heaven
Equality
you insist to shatter
Intimacy
still the only matter

Flowered hands are reaching out
Filling me with hours of doubt
You strive not to hear my voice
Boiling flesh reveals your choice
My weakness needs your embrace
Your stiff narrow empty face

Going Down

Breathe my head in
Let me slip inside
Your star is fading
Let me keep you alive

Absorb my senses
Let me see through your eyes
Share your darkest ocean
What’s eating you alive?
I’ll turn your every reason
Just level with my mind

You’re drifting away
Before my eyes
I cannot cope or understand
and paradise is lost

Your pulse gets slower
for every breath
I want to make you understand
There still are things to trust

We’re floating away
You try to explain:
“Theres nothing left for us to gain
– our paradise is lost…”

I’m reaching your tide
To inhale your lie
I’m joining you, we understand
that paradise is lost

We’re drifting away
For every breath
Theres nothing left for us to gain
Our paradise is lost…



The Unknown

A truth
too fragile
Movement
still
slow
Asleep and frail

Stiffness breeding faster
Reality
exhale
Faith descending
Running
to its end

Watching this world
passing away



To Live Is Regret **

Serpent calls
The final breath
To live is regret
I have to select
Though years have past
Our laughter soft behind
Erasing the time

Desire
still hurts
Conquers me, I cease to feel
It’s always near
but not so clear
Spinning away
We’re spinning away

Searching for the shimmering light
Turning back though it’s in sight
Struggling to save
This infinite day
This disillusion of life

Repressing this shivering light
You are lying warm and bright
Pretending to save
This infinite day
Conceal
Entering the disillusion

Rush to save the day
My hands burning on her flesh
The sleeping eye swayed so close
Keep your eyes skinned
Keep your eyes skinned
Rush to save the day
My hands burning on her flesh
The sleeping eye
swayed
so close



Desire Slowly Bursting

The silence now
when you’re here to stay
Washing every colour away

Lips not moving
A cold embrace
Giving the end a face

Eyes wide open
Gasping for air
The winter of your heart
tear our worlds apart

You’re hurt and I bleed
and I still can’t seal
the feelings you told me
not to feel
You’re too far away
to ever be close
I’ll give you
whatever you need to dream

You’re scared and I bleed
and I still can feel
those moments you force me
not to feel
Your prescence still there
hanging soft in the air
those hungry words pounding
scenting yearning arousing
me

That breathless voice
Floating in tears
Washing away our time

Your face still trembling
your arms so pale
Revealing secrets
hiding far away

Eyes wide open
Fading away
The winter of your heart
tear us worlds apart

Fallen Idols

Dry eyes
Doubting
Sensing nothing
Leading the way
Sharing skin
Every instant precious
Losing direction
Remember every breath we’ve taken
Remember
and try to forget


Screaming Within *

Laughing faces
Shining maces
It’s creeping to you
The dreams become real
Nobody to feel
Conquer my mind
Share my love
And share my fears

It act so strange
Rising above me
Expecting me to give in
It act so strange
Rising above me
Expecting me to give in

The nightmare’s real
It’s creeping to you
The dreams become real
I can hear you scream

The nightmare’s real
It truely exist
It’s laughing at you
It’s screaming for you

Conquer my mind
Share my love
And taste my tears
It’s creeping to you
The dreams become real
Nobody to feel

It act so strange
Rising above me
Expecting me to give in
It act so strange
Rising above me
It act so strange

Laughing faces
Shining maces
It’s creeping to you
The dreams become real
Nobody to feel
Conquer my mind
Share my love
And share my fears
Conquer my mind
Share my love

Struck Down *

Pure anger is burning in my skull
The only thing now is to maintain control
Closing up from my upper arm
The battle in me is lost and gone
Adrenaline and anger is burning in my vein
Cheering at me inside my brain

I want to see your blood on the ground
I want to see you laying there
Struck Down
Struck Down
I want to see your blood on the ground
I Want to see you laying there
Struck Down
Struck Down
On the ground

I welcome the madness that move in my soul
I lost
Lost all control
The scientists made a good job on me
They took humanity
My humanity

I want to see your blood on the ground
I want to see you laying there
Struck Down
Struck Down
I want to see your blood on the ground
I want to see you laying there
Struck Down
Struck Down
On the ground

Micro circus in my brain
It’s amplifying
Built in me to do some pain
Adrenaline and anger is burning in my vein
Built in me to do some pain
Built in me to do some pain



Debris *

My feelings are nothing
But I feel no despair
Crawling
Needing
Aching
Crawling
Needing
Aching
Feeling
Aching
Needing
Crawling
Needing
Aching
What do you want me to do
When I not want to

My feelings for you
Says we are Undone
Wanting you to feel me
Need me
My feelings for you
Says we are undone
Wanting you to feel me
Wanting you to need me
Feel me

Crawling
Needing
Aching
Crawling
Needing
Aching
What do you want me to do
When I not want to
What do you want me to do
When I not want to



Final Spasm *

Looking out from the doors of time
Past and time to come
Doomed for all time
To live in this hell to world
The hell living
The horror dying
Die to immortal dreaming
The hell living
The horror dying
Die to immortal dreaming

Cannot breathe
Can you feel the pressure?
Can you feel the choking
All around
The hell living
The horror dying
Die to immortal dreaming

Know what you are
And what I am
Do you know
In the red dust and forgotten
Charged with desperation

Looking out from the doors of time
Past and time to come
Doomed for all time
To live in this hell to world
The hell living
The horror dying
Die to immortal dreaming



The Lighter Surface *

In deep quiet gloom
Seeking in vain
(Fluid moments)
Like a barrier in the mind
I learn nothing
(Willing to converse)
Wasting no time
and I want no distractions
(Fluid moments)

The eyes dissolving away
And feelings struggling
Spring to its lighter surface
Spring to its lighter surface

The taste of the conflict
Infected with hate
(Willing to converse)
In deep quiet gloom
Seeking in vain
(Fluid moments)
Reluctant sustainance of you
I learn nothing
(Willing to converse)

Happy thoughts
Trembling
Fading
Slow

The eyes dissolving away
And feelings struggling
Spring to its lighter surface
Spring to its lighter surface

Happy thoughts
Fading
Slow


Loss Of Breath

Decisions
Act
Run
Time is on your side
A thousand whispers reach out
Do you believe in me?
Try
Faith
Cracked
Be calm
Time is on your side
Can’t stay
Make my tears fall
Do you confide in me?
Sit back still
Watch this world
Pass me by

Use my blind eyes
See me fall
Lie down
Slip
Ask for more
With violet hands
Please hold me down
Incite my set back
Keep me sore

Use my blind eyes
See me fall
Lie down
Strip
Fake once more
Drain my mind
Please bring me down
Come back
Stay
Cut
Watch me crawl

Decisions long gone
Set the night on fire
Luscious bright lies cried out
Do you despise my dream?
Try
Fail
Let it flow
and set the night on fire
Can’t stay
Run my hair through
Will you remember me?
Sit back close
Watch this world
Pass me by

 

All lyrics by Henrik Karlsson
except * by Johan Kronberg,
and ** by Karlsson/Kronberg.